[Originally published by Uflythisway on July 12, 2011; used with permission.]
This is from a dear friend of mine. I love her style, but mostly, I love her honesty.
I wanted to let You know that I have been infatuated with You since I first heard Your name. I use to wonder who You were and why I was so special to You. As time went on I learned who You were and what You did to rescue me, but I still wondered why. I am no one special, I was barely a little girl and could not even do anything worth talking about. I did like the stories You put in your book, I found them intriguning. I said the prayer that let You into my heart but I had no idea what that meant. When I said the prayer it was just words that all the other kids were saying and I wanted to be like them. I am sorry for my behavior.
When I became a teenager I forgot all about my infatuation with You and decided to do my own thing. I am so sorry that I went away from You and that I did not grow to love You as a child. I did some pretty stupid things, and yet You still chased me. I had never known that type of love until later in my life. I still knew and heard about You and some times even lusted after the things You had to offer. I was not the best daughter and I am regetful for this time of my life. I am not sorry because these things made me who I am today.
My lust became to strong for my flesh. I wanted to give You everything You ever wanted from me. I wanted the love You had shown me when You constantly chased me. Placing people in my life that would not let me forget who You were. I wanted to please You. So You placed a special person in my life to help me understand just how big You and Your love really is. I never wanted anything so badly than to have You in my life. You showed me what it was like to be loved beyond my wildest dreams. You brought some one so special in my life to love me just the way I am. He accepted the crazy person that I can be and chased me just as You had done for all those years. How could I not commit myself to You? This time I knew the meaning and the power that little prayer has and I said it with my mind, heart and soul. I went from being infatuated with You as a little girl, to lusting after You as a teenager and young adult, to being completly in love with You as the person I am today.
Thank You for not giving up on me. I know that I have let You down several times since I committed myself to You and I am so sorry Daddy. Please Daddy, please forgive me for shaming You. Never give up on me. I want my prayer to be that I can be a daughter that You are proud of, that You would have no problem telling anyone how would listen that I belong to You.
I love you so much Daddy
your little girl