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My Love Letter to My Heavenly Father

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[Originally published by Uflythisway on July 12, 2011; used with permission.]

My Love Letter to My Heavenly Father

This is from a dear friend of mine. I love her style, but mostly, I love her honesty.

Dear Lord,

I wanted to let You know that I have been infatuated with You since I first heard Your name. I use to wonder who You were and why I was so special to You. As time went on I learned who You were and what You did to rescue me, but I still wondered why. I am no one special, I was barely a little girl and could not even do anything worth talking about. I did like the stories You put in your book, I found them intriguning. I said the prayer that let You into my heart but I had no idea what that meant. When I said the prayer it was just words that all the other kids were saying and I wanted to be like them. I am sorry for my behavior.

When I became a teenager I forgot all about my infatuation with You and decided to do my own thing. I am so sorry that I went away from You and that I did not grow to love You as a child. I did some pretty stupid things, and yet You still chased me. I had never known that type of love until later in my life. I still knew and heard about You and some times even lusted after the things You had to offer. I was not the best daughter and I am regetful for this time of my life. I am not sorry because these things made me who I am today.

My lust became to strong for my flesh. I wanted to give You everything You ever wanted from me. I wanted the love You had shown me when You constantly chased me. Placing people in my life that would not let me forget who You were. I wanted to please You. So You placed a special person in my life to help me understand just how big You and Your love really is. I never wanted anything so badly than to have You in my life. You showed me what it was like to be loved beyond my wildest dreams. You brought some one so special in my life to love me just the way I am. He accepted the crazy person that I can be and chased me just as You had done for all those years. How could I not commit myself to You? This time I knew the meaning and the power that little prayer has and I said it with my mind, heart and soul. I went from being infatuated with You as a little girl, to lusting after You as a teenager and young adult, to being completly in love with You as the person I am today.

Thank You for not giving up on me. I know that I have let You down several times since I committed myself to You and I am so sorry Daddy. Please Daddy, please forgive me for shaming You. Never give up on me. I want my prayer to be that I can be a daughter that You are proud of, that You would have no problem telling anyone how would listen that I belong to You.

I love you so much Daddy

your little girl

“As Long As You Love Me”

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Anyone who knows me, knows I’ve recently rediscovered my affinity for the Backstreet Boys.

I fully admit, I have always been one of those girls who dreams of the fairy tale rescue and swoons over love lyrics sung by boy bands. It’s not so much the love stuff as it is, I’ve just always liked bubble gum music. To be honest, I’m sure they could sing about cow patties and I’d find it extremely wonderful.

And on a day when I felt like a cow patty, it was the Backstreet Boys and God who made me feel better.

Have you ever had one of those days where you just don’t know what’s going on? A day where you feel troubled, lonely, sad, or just mellow? A day when everyone else seems content and you seem… left out?

I had a day like that. Friday, February 18, 2011. There was no reason for it. I wasn’t harassed or bothered by anyone. In fact, nobody even noticed. I think that was the point. And in my loneliness, I started thinking about past relationships. I quickly found myself noting the good qualities I missed, and glossing over the bad traits that I’d left. Isn’t that what loneliness does to us? Takes away reality and leaves us with false memories through rose-colored glasses?

I turned to the greatest Love Letter ever written: the Bible. Since it was the 18th, I read Proverbs 18. And came upon verse 10: “The name of the LORD is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.” I had a beautiful vision of running away from the men of my past, running from their hurts and their intentions, the broken pieces of me that they kept chipping away… and I ran, instead to the arms of my Beloved, my Savior. As I called upon the name of My LORD, He opened his arms. With one arm He scooped me, curled and ashamed, into His protection; with the other, He drew His shield of protection to cover me, us; and thwarted any attacks meant to hurt me. I was safe. Safe in His arms. I breathed in His heavenly scent and relaxed.

I kept that feeling of protection, of worthiness, with me throughout the day. A few hours later I needed to get a few things from the local Target, and as I was passing by the cd’s, I saw it. The Backstreet Boys’ playlist cd. Fourteen of their greatest hits at a discount price. It called me. It called me loudly!

The weather in February is always fickle. I was lucky enough to have one of our first warm days of the year, and a moon-roof in my car that begged to be opened. I put the cd in and was transported back to summer days, long nights, giggling girls, college dates … more emotion than memory. I felt… happy.

The second song began to play. I found myself driving detours back to work just to make it last. My Proverbs Experience came to the forefront, and I was drowned in these words, sung by a boy band; placed in my heart by The Man. I’ll never listen to it the same way ever again.

Truly, no matter where I go, or what I do… I am loved. By the One who loves me back.

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

I don't care who you are(who you are)
Where you're from(where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me(I don't know)
Who you are(who you are)
Where you're from(where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin' from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby.

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (you love me)
(repeat to fade)
who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (you love me)