I just published Hidden Files, about discovering some old writings I’d forgotten or pushed to the sides. I found writings I’d intended to publish on a former Blog. It was a blog that had three readers, and lasted four or five months. For obvious reasons, I shut it down and started Frankly, My Dear… which seems to be doing so much better. [Thank you, kind readers!]
I came across these two in particular. I apologize they’re a bit unclear; the only way to capture the entire essence and word structures was to save them as a PDF-photo and enlarge them here. It makes the letters a bit blurred; but still readable.
I was surprised at the raw honesty of these two posts. The cursing of emotions that I was willing to announce. But mostly, I’m pleased because I can now look at it from The Other Side instead of In The Moment. I am no longer That Girl in That Moment. I am now The Girl Who Grew.
I’m at peace with different events in my life. I’m at peace with the absence of what I once thought was love. Now, before you get all riled up in my defense, I will add this disclaimer: I’m very good friends with the “enemy” of these posts. He knows I write about him now and then. We talk often. He was a lousy almost-boyfriend; but he’s always been the best of friends.
And I’m at peace with the experience. It was years ago when I was younger and unsure of myself. I had little to offer someone else, other than, as he affectionately tells me, requests for High Maintenance.
I read these posts yesterday. And I smiled.
Because I’m not who I was. I’m who I am. And even that’s not Who I’ll Be.
And I’m okay with that.
Because I’m living for the future.
And Frankly, My Dear… that’s all she wrote!
I am soooo proud of who you’ve become and that you can look back with a smile. Sometimes our lessons we NEED to learn hurt the most, or are the hardest.
Love and hugs!!
Amen to that, Lisa. Love and hugs back! I’m likewise proud of you!![My Profile](http://franklymydearmojo.com/wp-content/plugins/commentluv/images/littleheartplus.png)
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I love the raw emotion. You are such a deep thinker and I love you.
Thanks, Jess. I think the bigger accomplishment here is, as a writer, putting myself so deeply exposed to the public. But I did, and it feels good!![My Profile](http://franklymydearmojo.com/wp-content/plugins/commentluv/images/littleheartplus.png)
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Does not sound like a good guy!!! I am glad that is in the past : )![My Profile](http://franklymydearmojo.com/wp-content/plugins/commentluv/images/littleheartplus.png)
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He’s actually a very good guy, Ann. And I’m proud to say we’re still good friends. I was going through a very clingy-needy time and should not have tried to be in a serious relationship back then. I’m glad for the lessons I learned!![My Profile](http://franklymydearmojo.com/wp-content/plugins/commentluv/images/littleheartplus.png)
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